I feel distant.
Everyday I am getting farther and farther away from this blog and my friends.
It isnt because of my phone being obliterated or my multiple lunch detentions, I just feel different, dark kind of.
I dont really feel as close to anyone or anything lately like I normally am, my life has just been disrupted by something that makes no sense to me. I feel like when I look around, everybody is hiding something that will hurt someone else. Everybody HAS hurt someone else. Or they just want to hurt someone.
I think that it is kind of a little bit of betrayal, but I dont know, I am just guessing that.
My (not)friend Tony finally told me why we went from best friends to him giving me dirty looks and walking away. His brother told him he would be cooler and more liked without if he stayed away from me.
How big of a fuck-up am I?
Then he continued pestering me and wouldnt stop texting me and he said "You were never completely honest with me, there was always something more to tell me". So then I said "I used to like you, but now I see that was a mistake because all I ever did was slow you down". (FROM WHAT? BEING A FUCKING SCUMBAG?!)"Are you happy now, you know fucking everything" I finished off with.
Guess what his response was.
"I'll be fine."
I dont feel like blogging anymore.
Oh, and by the fucking way. If you know me you will probably understand this, STOP FUCKING TALKING ABOUT ME AND MY BLOG BEHIND MY BACK. YOUR JUST LIKE ALL THE OTHERS, DOUCHE BAG!
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